Tuesday, November 28, 2006

From a True Master

Truth has no path. Truth is living and, therefore, changing. Awareness is without choice, without demand, without anxiety; in that state of mind, there is perception. To know oneself is to study oneself in action with another person. Awareness has no frontier; it is giving of your whole being, without exclusion.
  • Tao of Jeet Kune Do

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Life changing event?

It was a dark, windy and wet night before Thanksgiving; as I head home in my cargo van, travelling at speed limit on highway 92, a Toyota in front and right of me began to spin. I remember I was wishing it will not come into my lane while stepping on the brake really hard. It did, head first. I crashed into its left front. The impact pushed the Toyota few feet to making it perpendicular to the lanes.

Some people who claimed near death experience say they saw a white light before they supposedly died. I saw it too, the moment right before the collision. The white light was actually more like my vision turning bright and blank obscuring the moment of the crash. Even though I don't remember seeing the crash but I sure felt it through out my body. The seat belt worked as it should and jerked my body back upon impact. Interestingly, the air bag did not deploy. Maybe the sensors was not working or the combination of the speed and impact location did not set off the airbag. The air bag may actually have injured me instead because of its 200mph speed in which it comes out.


I was dazed for a few moments and saw a man and a woman holding a child, running toward the center divide. I could not move but I was thought the worst for the child. As I sat there still dazed and feeling pain on my chest area, the man came over and asked if I was OK. He said he was sorry and that he did not know what happened that he started spinning out.

A few drivers stopped to help and I tried to call 911 3 times until I was able to get through. It was a busy night, since many drivers could not deal with the first wet pavement of the season.
Ambulance, CHP all, came. My hands were shaking as I was filling and signing the ambulance waiver. I was really shaken up from this accident. I am just glad no one got hurt.

Their Toyota is totaled but I was able to drive my big cargo van home with a damaged steel bumper and front grill.

So, was this a life changing event for me? I would say not. Sure, I may have died, other people in the other car may have suffered more injury; however, I just felt like things are going to happen, good or bad, no matter what happens. We can only hope for the best. Who knew the car in front was going to spun out and cross into your lane causing you to crash into it. We can always try to be safe but others may not.

I like to think that that night I saved 3 people in that Toyota. Why? If it wasn't for me on the lane they crossed into, it may have been someone else that maybe speeding or did not respond as fast as they could. If i have not steer the van towards the engine compartment of the Toyota, the impact may have been in the passenger's compartment. They may have been injured.

So I like to think that I changed their lives.

"Hug someone you love tighter tonight." I hate cliches. you should hug all you love tight no matter what happened or for nothing that happened.